Breathe Me

"Be my friend
Hold me, wrap me up
Unfold me
I am small
and needy
Warm me up
And breathe me"

Who am I?

I am two different people.

I am a fashion design student, bold, bossy, knows what she wants, makes clothing into art, shoes, headbands, shirts, dresses, looking in a window at a store... smiling knowing I can make that, but cuter. Being famous, on the road, never home, magazine shoots, tv shows, the IT-GIRL, make clothes for the stars, filthy rich$$$ or completely failing XXX, but happy because I'm creating what I love. Don't care what people think, they don't like me?, screw em!

I am a teacher, happy, l♥vin on kids all day, timeouts and sentences, laughing at all of their silly mannerisms and things they say, grading papers, feeling accomplished when I can see their "light bulbs", going off when they truly understand what has been taught by me, loving my job, but being broke.

Pressure

I so badly want to go to Ireland and London for the summer. I feel like I am never going to collect all the money I need. I have passed out business cards like crazy, trying to promote myself as a babysitter. I am limited because I go to school and work and parents at my school don't really understand that. Right now I have $400. I know that is not a lot of money but for me this is huge. Unfortunately I have to save money right now for text books and that is just a headache in it self. My sister already has all of her money and is set to go. She has always been a saver, but this is more difficult for me. She was the kid that saved birthday money and giftcards. I was the kid who thought saving was some kind of joke. Now it has affected me in my later years. I am 19 years old and I can't put away twenty dollars. It's definitely becoming a learning process. Prostitutes and strippers are sad, pathetic, and gross, yet they could probably book their flight to Europe in ONE night. I am jealous, don't judge me.

Pajama Party?

I love getting new jammies. It's like a present just for me. I'm all about the cutesy girl pajamas. Sexy, but comfy. It's all about comfy. Target has the cutest lounge wear clothes, right now. If I had more money, I'd jump on them. But... I'm saving. So I thought I'd get some of my shopping energy out on a blog. The colors, shape, designs, and prices are great! Now I want to have a huge slumber party! Here are some of my pj favorite sets :]

(Maxi Sleeper looks super comfy.) (This romper is so cute, I'd probably live in it.)

( I have the turquoise set in black) && Yay for ruffles :)

http://www.target.com/Sleepwear-Womens-Clothing-Women/b/ref=nav_t_spc_1_inv_9_0/183-3299820-2333336?ie=UTF8&node=13767791

kids say the funniest stuff.

I work at a school and the kids call me, Ms. Erin. ( ......= new convo / different kids) P.S. I have Jr. Kindergarten (step above pre-school) and regular Kindergarten.

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little girl- "Ms. Erin are you wearing a Juicy jacket?"

me- "Yes, I am."

little boy-" is it made out of juice?"

me- "It's not."

little boy- "then why do they call it a Juicy jacket?

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little boy- "Ms. Erin, guess what?"

me- "what?"

little boy- "my aunt gave me a woody."

me-"she gave you a WHAT?"

little boy- "A WOODY." (louder)

me- "umm..." (puzzled look on my face)

little boy-" you know woody the cowboy doll, for Toy Story?"

me-" oh gotcha, that makes more sense."

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Around Christmas time a little boy walked around singing this, "We wish you a merry booty, we wish you a merry booty, and a happy new booty."

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Shakira's music is making an impact on kids (SheWolf).... little girl- " There's a sea horse in my closet, open it up and set her free, ahhh woo!" (Actual lyrics, "There's a she wolf in your closet

Open up and set her free.")

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The disco ball light broke (the one we use for freeze dance). The kids were bummed. One kid walks up to me and says, " Don't worry Ms. Erin, my spirits aren't down." (HAHA what junior kindergardener says that?).

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Europe, hopefully.

This summer my friend convinced me to save up money and travel to Europe. I'm not exactly sure of all the details but I think it will be an unforgettable experience. I am young and deserve this. If I go through with this, I will be so proud of myself. I am really bad at planning in the future and I cannot save money worth a damn. But I am going to try really really hard. I need to save $ 1,000. I will then be able to cross that off my list of (100) woo. I am going to be an extreme penny pincher. I am going to be such a tight wad, it will be redic. I want an adventure. I think I deserve it.

xo-European Erin :]

Secret Life of the American Teenager and Teen Mom

Teen Pregger shows are becoming extremely popular. They are entertaining and hopefully to some they are acting as a preventative. My two favorite shows are Secret Life and Teen Mom. I also love the character of Quinn Fabray on Glee.

Last night on secret life I was so excited to see Ruthie from 7th Heaven. She now looks so old. Its crazy. She is the new bad girl named Zoey. I hope her character develops on the show. I think her character would add a lot to the story line. ABC Family needs to cut the new student counselor. She is extremely awkward and doesn't fit in the show. I also think they need to come up with a new word for sex. Because they use 'sex' a million times in a sentence. It's extremely annoying. For instance, Jack- "I want to have sex." Grace- "I don't think I'm ready to have sex." Jack- "What about oral sex?" Grace- " Sex, in any form is sex". As you can see that is extremely obnoxious. ABC, try some of these, make love, screw, get it on, bang, get some, lay, do, fool around, bow-chika- bow-wow, tap that, go all the way. Ha ha, sorry to be so graphic but I think I made my point. Amy's character bothers me. She never seems like she is a mother. She never does things with John. She thinks she can be a regular teenager and she can't. I understand it is a sitcom but at the same time I feel the show is not realistic.

I love love love Teen Mom on MTV. It is real. It shows the struggles and how hard it is to truly be a mother. I love Maci, I think she is a great mom. Her baby, Bentley is adorable. I think she needs to kick Ryan to the curb. He is a pathetic excuse for a man. I also love Catelynn and Tyler they seem to really have it together and they have a strong bond. I can't imagine giving my baby up for adoption. Amber is a crazy girl. I understand her fiance is a d-bag but really she needs to chill. Her baby is going to grow up in stressful environment. The one I really cannot stand is Farrah. She needs to put on her big girl panties and be the woman she thought she was that night she got knocked up. Didn't want to be a mom? Don't want to lose your social life? Well don't sleep around like a idiot. Her poor baby is going to grow up thinking that her grandma is her mom because her real mom is out partying, trying to find a new baby daddy. If I could punch her in the face I would. She really thinks staying out till 3 o'clock in the morning is ok? You have a baby, you retard. Her mother is doing nothing but enabling her. Farrah also talks

completely disrespectfully to her mom. If I was her mother I'd punish her.